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[inthistwilight]

im 37 and ive never kissed any i liked, only when i wanted to lure them outside to kill them from bars.








and ive never had sex either.









[.... WHAT.






Forever trying to rip the page out.]

Comments

[fellfrommyheart.livejournal.com]

NONONONONONONO

WHY WONT IT GO AWAY

STUPID JOURNAL

I CANT RIP THIS THING OUT

NOOOOOOOOOOO

[thehighestwing.livejournal.com]

[...Oh. She can see why this would be awkward, and all the entries are really making her wonder if it's something in the Rift water.]

Why... do you kill them?

[fellfrommyheart.livejournal.com]

[Dylan takes a while to answer. She threw her journal across the room and left it there. EVIL THING.]


because they were evil. they did bad, awful things.

[thehighestwing.livejournal.com]

Oh. Um, you probably shouldn't be killing them anyway?

But.

... do you want to have sex someday? Because I don't think it really matters how old you are, you'll find someone you'll want to kiss and be intimate with if that's the case.

[fellfrommyheart.livejournal.com]

i should. its


its a thing i do. personal thing.

its very... complicated.


i think so because im sick of being all that with the killing and the not really having much of a good life. so im trying to stop killing so much and do normal things that a girl should. and then maybe

yeah. it would be nice one day. and scary.

[Being close to people freaks her out a little, okay? ;;]

[locked, for dylan's privacy]

[thehighestwing.livejournal.com]

complicated how?

i mean, if you want to tell me. you obviously don't have to and we're strangers but... i think i could get it.

everyone deserves to have a good life. i think everyone could if they worked for it.

it's definitely scary to put yourself out there but trust me when i say? it's also really, really wonderful.

[loooocked]

[fellfrommyheart.livejournal.com]

[Long, long pause. She doesn't want to be openly honest about this, but she can't seem to help it. She seems to be writing faster than she can think.]

i kill men who hurt or kill women. sometimes theyre human. they laugh about beating their wives and girlfriends in bars. when they avoid jail when they kill little girls cos the system is fucked up.

i do it when no one else will.

because i know what its like to not have anyone bring justice. when nobody comes to help.

[She doesn't write anything for a long time. She feels sick and wants to curl up into a corner and cry. Shakily, she writes:]



ive been stuck doing that for so long. i lost everyone in the end.

i want nice things now. i want wonderful.

[xandtheman3.livejournal.com]

Speaking from experience, trying to kill someone does not generally lead to lusty thoughts.

You can try taking them to a movie if you want to have sex with them. Yeah. A movie, dinner, people aren't too hard to please. It's the death that's like the coldest shower.

[arrowblessed.livejournal.com]

you know



you're probably not gonna die anytime soon

JUST PUTTING THAT OUT THERE so I'm going to stop saying it because it's kinda weird and

[She can't finish that sentence. She's too busy dying.]

[xandtheman3.livejournal.com]

Woah! Hey!

Where'd that come from?

Cause this whole time you've been telling me about my death.

And now there's this!

[arrowblessed.livejournal.com]

I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT

[xandtheman3.livejournal.com]

Uh.

And I quote, I AM HERE TO REMIND YOU THAT YOU'RE GONNA DIE.

I'm not making this up. It is word for word here.

[arrowblessed.livejournal.com]

you know, sometimes people say things

just because they know words


they don't always mean those things! sometimes it's just like. LOOK. I KNOW WORDS AND CAN MAKE SENTENCES.

[xandtheman3.livejournal.com]

Yeah, people say things all the time.

We're saying things now.


Really? Cause I kind of feel like in school that people saying words usually meant their words. I slept through most of school but they were kind of clear on that.

[arrowblessed.livejournal.com]

[Sorry, Xander. Kenzie can't reply to this anymore.

She's kind of... chewing on this journal page.

She may have been raised by wolves. Or maybe Lady Gaga.]

[xandtheman3.livejournal.com]

Is it that you really don't think my rift power is secretly death or that you don't want it to be death?

;)

[arrowblessed.livejournal.com]

also oh my god don't use that emoticon ever

[xandtheman3.livejournal.com]

Why not?

You're not the emoticon police. ;)

[fellfrommyheart.livejournal.com]

[Dylan stares. And stares more. Then scowls.]

i dont think you get it.

lure. them. out. to. kill. them.

i didnt want to


DATE them in the FIRST place.

[xandtheman3.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I've experienced that. too.

I'm just sayin.

[fellfrommyheart.livejournal.com]

oh.



right.


[.... forever frowny sulk mode.]


so you killed people? or did someone try to kill you?

[comedownthisroad]

Well... I'm 18 and have never kissed anyone?

So, you're one up on me, anyway. Even if you're an old fart.

[fellfrommyheart.livejournal.com]

im not that old.

[knowmycall.livejournal.com]

[Fletcher does not know what to do with this information.]


I think you'll find someone someday. Who you won't want to hurt.

[fellfrommyheart.livejournal.com]

[She is still trying to tear the page out. :(


This is definitely not something she wants to share, she is embarrassed okay.]



i dunno. maybe.





i would like that.